I have never lost this much money in a day. I have about 2343243 bad beat stories! Who wants to hear them?? Nobody. Everyone has bad beats and gets cold-decked so I won't go into detail. I am not sure how I feel, I am obviously shocked, but instead of just blaming it on the beats/cold deck, I need to look at what I could/should have done to prevent this. The first thing that comes up in my mind is that I was playing about 12-14 tables at a time, six of them being 6-max. This might have made me do some things without really thinking about it. I was playing six 6-max tables on UB, which are VERY fast games, I was able to keep up, but I am not sure if I played my best. I want to say I played my best, but I can't.
Yesterday I did cashouts on all the sites I play on, leaving 20k on each site (enough for 5/10nl). I know there is a rumor about running bad right after you cash out, and it sure as hell seems true. I lost half my bankroll on UB in two days, lost a lot on stars, some on paradise and the only site I am positive on is PartyPoker, and I hate that site. This rumor obviously has nothing to do with how you run (.... Or does it?) but I don't know what else to blame it on, lol.
When you lose this much money in a day it really ruins your confidence and makes you think about things you don't normally think about. After taking my 4th set-over-set I slammed my laptop, turned off my monitors and just sat there. Thoughts of getting back in the game and trying to win it all back in 30 minutes came in my head, but that would be stupid, there is no way I could win with that mind set.
I have some mixed feelings right now, I am not sure if I should play, or take a break, or what. I don't think I need a break, and my friend made a good point about how you find out a lot about how you play when you are stuck. And learning how to play when you are stuck or running bad is so important, and I agree. As of right now, I am trying to look at the other side, and see how lucky I am do have as much success as I've had, and I am still on track for my goal, but I will not give up on. This is just a speed bump on the road of poker success.
I Need: $27,052.91
Total Earnings: $72,947.09